Last year, Ralph and I started Formation to the Permanent Diaconate in the Diocese of Orlando. During the retreat to kick off the year, we wrote a letter to Jesus, our friend. We also provided a self-addressed, stamped envelope to mail it. I had forgotten about the letter and, today I received it! Oh what a year it’s been and the letter just brought back memories of that wonderful weekend. Allow me to share it with you. God bless.
“August 13, 2017
How are you? I feel that I have not been able to talk to you much lately. I see you at church almost daily when I go to mass. I know I should probably see you more often than that.
This weekend has been such a blessing to me. I learned that I don’t even have to go to church to see you. I don’t even have to leave the house to do so. I found that you are actually in my heart. You have always been there all this time but I did not recognize you. I did not recognize you because I was busy looking for you everywhere but there.
I tell you, that was truly eye-opening. From this day forward, I will always move you into my heart from my mind. In order to do this I have to be intentional in how I treat my neighbors. I have to see you in each one of the people that I meet as well as in me. Sometimes I am very hard on me. I don’t see me worthy of your friendship, much less a relationship with.
I know now that for me to be Christ-like, I have to change how I think about my neighbors. I have to let go of the “what-ifs”. I have to trust that God’s plan is the perfect one for me even if I don’t realize nor agree with it.
Jesus, if you don’t mind, I want to ask for your help with Megan and Erin. I ask that you bless both of them. I ask that you send the Holy Spirt down on Erin so that she will find a friend and a lover in you. I ask that you check on Megan. I ask that you continue to rest in her heart to know that you and Mama Mary will not leave her side as she goes through her pregnancy.
I love you and hope to see you in my heart always,